Get out. Grab your clothes and get gone. I’m too tired of your lies and your woeful eyes. They never seem to be enough to make you drench in remorse. I took you in too many times. I gave forgiveness even if it was clear that you really should have been forgotten. This is the end and there is no one more try. This is it, so go ahead and get gone.
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Believe it when I say that I love you more than anything in this world. Please see the things that fall in your feet. Can you see what my hands are holding? They’re clutching spoonfuls of time and fulfillment. If it’s not enough. If you can’t feel my heart beating against my ribs. Just wait for a minute. I’m going to show you how the sky changes from darkness to light in one quick sweep.
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What can I do? There’s nothing left here, but hallowed words and rusted pens. I was going to save you from your fall. I was going to tear my heart in two. I was going to kiss your salted tears until they stop from flowing in your eyes. I was going to do everything to keep you alive. But you gave me up. You turned the corner and left me here without even saying a final goodbye.
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Close your eyes and think of me. Think of the things that I make you feel. Do you feel your heart thumping louder with each second ticking? Does your mouth search for a partner in a dance that we’ve perfected with time? Are your eyes fluttering at the merest memory of tangled limbs and gasping breaths?
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I am invincible, or that’s what I’d like everyone to think. I carry the weight of my heart and my soul with the added bulk of amassed pain and regret at the tips of my shoulders. I am everything they want me to be and I wish this wasn’t so. I’m fragile and I’m close to falling down these steps. I wish I can get out. But they’ve closed out the exit and all I can do is smile. Smile until my lips stays frozen in limp space.